Friday, May 20, 2016

Change (poem)

Changing Leaves (Change - poem) brokenbreadandsmallfish.com
Change 
You know I hate it
though 
there was a time
when it was exciting
when I looked forward with anticipation
to what's coming next
to the new experience(s)
but now
I look to change
with weariness
with a desire to cling to the old...

because of accumulated pain of loss

or maybe
because of a certain amount of guilt

guilt for letting go
for being willing to let go
for not clinging more steadfastly...

I dread change.  

I love it
and 
I hate it

I embrace it
and
I push it away

I anticipate with joy
and 
I wake up nights
haunted
with pain
loss
and guilt

guilt for embracing change
when others are left behind.

Maybe...
maybe I don't hate change.
Maybe...
I hate guilt
the guilt of walking away.

But teach me
to embrace it
to head into it with joy
acknowledging sorrow
sidelining guilt

head up
shoulders back
chin set
walking confidently forward

every change
every transition
every loss of something old
and 
gain of something new

is practice
along the road
that brings me closer to You

embracing change
I am practicing
training
preparing
for the day
when all I have ever known
will fall away (Hebrews 12:26-29)

and I am left with

You

~
Change - how can I hate it?
When it brings me to You.

Linking up with Velvet Ashes at The Grove where the theme this week is "Change"


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2 comments:

  1. Michele, I can really relate to these feelings toward change. What a great perspective: that every change "is practice along the road
    that brings me closer to You." Thank you for helping me see it in that light.

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    1. Hi, Jodie! That was a new thought for me as I was writing - and it really helped me to see change in a different way - as mile stones along the road to Him, rather than just losses, and as practicing for "the big change"....

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