Thursday, February 4, 2016

Contented Competing

My angst
over where I am now
is it about
where You want me to be?
or 
is it about
where my pride thinks I should be?

Am I chafing
about my circumstances
because of what I think You (truly) want?



or 
because of what I want?

Can I be content
with where You have me now
able to come to rest
able to be all here
wholeheartedly
throw myself in
here and now

or 
am I restless?
wanting to be somewhere else
or something else
not where I am
not who I am

so that I can somehow
compete
with all I think they think 
I should be 
with everything I think 
I should be

Am I competing
to win the race
for You?

or 

am I competing 
to win the race
for me?



Linking up with Velvet Ashes at The Grove where the theme this week is "Compete"
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6 comments:

  1. These are such great questions, Michele! I would never think of putting contentment and competition together so I love that you did that. If our competition comes from a starting place of contentment then we aren't evaluating our self worth based on our performance (however good or bad it might be) and we can better see others as pushing us to do our best and our role as helping others do their best through teamwork, which is so important like you mentioned.

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    1. I like how you put it, Jodie, 'if our competition comes from a starting place of contentment' - it sounds kind of odd, to be content and yet to want to improve (in whatever area we want to improve in) - to somehow want to "run" better for Him - but not because I have to prove something but because I know He's already pleased with me and I want (I was going to say want ...to please Him more, but that's not really possible, is it) to enjoy WITH HIM "running faster" - for His kingdom, of course but also just for the sake of who/what He has created me - and those around me - to be.

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    2. ...which, I guess, IS for His kingdom.

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  2. I agree with Jodie! I love the juxtaposition of contentment and competition. You are a river that runs deep, my friend. :)

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    1. When I started writing, I didn't know it was going to turn out that way, Amy - contentment and competition, but they were warring against each other within me... and I need them to work together. Then I can let go of running the race for me, and just run it for Him...even as I typed those words ("run it for Him") exhilaration swept through me - it's so freeing I felt for I brief moment I could even fly...

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